No, not againI lay my head down but it just spins more.No, not again
Vacation was a blast, but now I'm back home.
I worry about the one I love the deepest, I just want him to be happy, I know we'll never be anything, but I still love him and want his life to be perfect.
It's torture to worry about him, because he won't tell me about it, and there's nothing I can do.
My psychologist meets with my parents next week, my dad, I wish we could leave my father out of this. If we could do that, burdens would be lifted.
I hate being back to this, &
Depression in my ThroatThe sadness overwhelms and nobody cares. It's too much for me right now. I just feel like nothing. I'm not special, I'm not loved, everything I do is null in void. Nothing matters, nobody cares. I am a nonentity. People say they're there for me, but they arent. They think my problems are mere complaints. I don't matter for any reason. Not anymore. Not ever.Depression in my Throat
My Hands Smell Like CancerDeep drag right outside my window, take in the spawn of the cancer stick. Watch the smoke flow to the sky, there's no going back.My Hands Smell Like Cancer
My hands smell like lung cancer, but I don't care. If I get lung cancer, they'll think it was the secondhand smoke.
That's the beauty of it, as long as I'm not caught, it looks like it was secondhand.
Maybe if I don't get caught with lung cancer, I can die that way,
I don't care.
If I was caught I'd be killed, they wouldn't tolerate anything like this, I'd live a nightmare.
But I
Potential PoemI would write you a poem, about suicide, to tell you how I feel.Potential Poem
But I can't put this to words, this feeling is indescribable. I can't stand it, and I want it to stop.
Nothing makes sense anymore, nobody understands it, I'm all alone.
This is as far as my ability of description will go, because I'm at a loss for words. My motivation is chained by this feeling.
Nothing can be done, I always bounce back down to this level, I cannot be saved.
Pocket Emo
Satisfied
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The greatest thing you'll ever learn is to love and be loved in return.
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